情非得以

《情非得以(流星花园片头主题曲)》
曲：汤小康 词：张国祥 编：Jamie Wilson

难以忘记初次见你 一双迷人的眼睛
在我脑海里 你的身影 挥散不去

握你的双手感觉你的温柔 真的有点透不过气
你的天真我想珍惜 看到你受委屈 我会伤心

* 只怕我自己会爱上你 不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你 爱你也需要很大的勇气
只怕我自己会爱上你 也许有天会情不自禁
想念只让自己苦了自己
Repeat *爱上你是我情非得已

什么原因 我竟然又会遇见你
我真的真的不愿意 就这样陷入爱的陷阱

latest blog

wanna to write a blog , but today i open this page need to wait for a long long time...
dunno how much time had spent to wait it..
lol.. of course not just waiting it.. the line speed too slow..
actually, every time i wrote blog here, is telling for my feeling.
i am shy... can't give too many expression in front of people..
so, i'm looking for a person, those would guide me to the right way
what person i really need right now is improve me to express more,
how to communicate with people.
of course, not only give the advice for me to just for a referring
and not just only a spoke without action,
i need it with action! i need a real experience!
with friends with teacher with colleague...
it seem like very easy things...
normally, we stay with anyone we don't know each other before for a period of time,
we will be friends... but, for me, it is big distance between of us..
so tough to keep in a distance.. really, need the person who can guide me for the way..
i can't explain well here.. but, something like that..
wish i can meet the person.. need God help...
now i realize, we need have a thick face to face with people that we don't know,
because wanna be friend with them.
the first step to me, is so difficult to proceed...
the feeling i wrote here is just for me to read, and actually i don't want let people that i know to saw it. so, i rarely using this blog, for the person i don't know read this, im please to let them comment here, why ? i still have many secret inside my heart i can't speak out.. for a person such as me, that is innermost feeling.. and just only the same behaviour person will know my thought. when i have a new other blog, i will write all my feeling, secret, my everything there, don't want let anyone that i know to read the blog. unless, im already not timid to communicate with people.
time was running everyday, but i have nothing change with this behaviour, so weak!!
everyday hidden myself, lol... need to dig a hole to escape!!
gambateh ba! encourage myself! lolx.. so stupid thing! day, over again one day.

有你在身旁

词：林子强
曲：光良
编：梁伯君
专辑：无印良品《珍重》

路有點長　夜有點微涼　心情迷迷惘惘　和寂寞交換沮喪

天邊星辰忽明又忽暗　那一顆最能照亮心房

夢和理想　心堅持不忘　方向就是力量　和時間交替煎熬

霧裡曙光綻放希望　有你一切都變得不一樣

謝謝你　給我溫暖　脆弱時候在我身旁

謝謝你　陪我成長　路上風風雨雨不怕荊棘失望

有你在身旁　心更堅強　陽光一路陪伴　成長更勇敢

你我心中不必言語　敞開心窗

有你在身旁　夢更精彩　朋友一路陪伴　星光更燦爛

相信相依共同仰望　生命因你更添光亮

灰暗世界

我这个人很静……我还以为我只跟异性会比较静，
没想到，现在连跟同性的人说话都寥寥无几……
我怎么那么的不开放，我不会表现出自然的我……
我好像只活在我的世界，踏不出另外一个世界，好难受……
教我如何跟人家沟通吧。
我觉得我朋友的观察力很棒！连我自己都不知道我原来是这样的！
他说：“也许你是比较擅长用字体来沟通。”
我现在才发现，我好像真的是这样的，所以在口才方面比较弱。
我不喜欢这样的我啊。。
可不可以让我多接触比较会主动讲话、口才比较好的人，教我如何沟通？

今天，下午4时左右，我喝了一杯米露，好久都没在这个时候吃点心咯～哈哈
虽然只有我一个人吃，但也不错～^^所谓：能吃是福～
喝了这杯米露再配上什棉饼，真的好好吃～我觉得很好吃啦！
所以，我真的好幸福哦～～能够吃到那么好料！哈哈～

爸爸跟妈妈明天就要去吉隆坡了，因为五姐回来啦！哈哈～
不知道她有没有带手信回来…哈哈～
没有就吵着她变出来！哈哈～

生活紧绷

我的生活太悠闲了，现在有了一份工作，至少不会无所事事。
所以，工作对我来说只是打发我的时间。
不过，除了打发时间，我也想快点赚到钱，为我的未来找个目标！
还没工作时，真的很期待有份工作，但现在有了工作，又不太想做了。。
但我不可以有这种想法，我不想对工作有恐惧感，这样以后就养不活自己了！
要积极点！

妈妈脚肿了，因为上次要启动摩托车时，鞋子一滑，脚就打到摩托的踏脚板！真是痛！
之前擦了是消肿了，可是现在又复发！
现在复发走路还一拐一拐的！之前打到都没这样！真的很痛！
希望很快就会好起来！

今天，16日，我要去看医生做laser... 好久没做了，这次要在做一次，也是会痛啊……
只是看的不是同一个医生而已…希望一切都会很好！

2 pots - perfect and imperfect

A water bearer in India had two large pots, one hung on each end of a pole which he carried across his neck. One of the pots had a crack in it, while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water at the end of the long walk from the stream to the master's house. The cracked pot arrived only half full.

For a full two years this went on daily, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots full of water in his master's house.

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishments, perfect to the end for which it was made.But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its own imperfection, and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do.

After two years of what it perceived to be a bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream:
"I am ashamed of myself, and I want to apologize to you."

"Why?" asked the bearer. "What are you ashamed of?"

"I have been able, for these past two years, to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master's house. Because of my flaws, you have to do all of this work, and you don't get full value from your efforts," the pot said.

The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and in his compassion he said, "As we return to the master's house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path."

Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the beautiful wild flowers on the side of the path, and this cheered it some. But at the end of the trail, it still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and so again it apologized to the bearer for its failure.

The bearer said to the pot, "Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of your path, but not on the other pot's side? That's because I have always known about your flaw, and I took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you've watered them. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master's table. Without you being just the way you are, he would not have this beauty to grace his house."



Moral: Each of us has our own unique flaws. We're all cracked pots. But it's the cracks and flaws we each have that make our lives together so very interesting and rewarding. You've just got to take each person for what they are, and look for the good in them.



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星洲周刊-生命树
文：温泉


大马一个23岁的大学生，在中国厦门A型流感疑似病患者，被隔离如罪犯，大家另眼相看，这给心灵带来多么大的创伤啊。
从前，以色列的麻风病者，也是这样的遭遇。由于疾病本身的可怕，由于宗教上的禁忌，他们被认为是不洁净的，会污秽人们的身体和地位，甚至性灵。当他们要经过人群，必须高喊：不洁净的来了！不洁净的来了！好叫大家躲避。可是，有一天，耶稣来了，耶稣没有躲避麻风病者，反之，他怜悯的触摸他们，并医治了他们，不论是身体的疾病，或是心灵的结。
朋友，当所有的人都与你隔离了，都远避你如同远避疯子和爱滋病着一样，你当知道，有一个神，他爱你，他没有离开你，他是耶稣，他是你最好的朋友。

心情话语

我又放错了。。又做了不该做的事……
为什么会这样的？！我的弱点。。又是攻我的弱点……
希望我能够跟我的朋友在一起工作。。真得很希望能够和她在一起做。。 我很傻，为什么会有那么巧的事啊？竟然又多了一个进来。。
本来可以很顺利的，这是给我的一个考验吗？我该怎么办？？
第一次工作就遇到麻烦事。。心里很焦虑。。
希望不是我一个人就好了，因为我认路很差。。也不想和我朋友分开。
有个人陪我一起就好了，希望是我的那个朋友。。
我知道以后也要自己一个人，但我想在最初的开始，有个伙伴陪伴，
适应了工作以后，就知道工作原来是这个样子，以后不用人家陪也可以做得很好的！
对不起，应该很多人都不知道我在写什么吧？
因为我习惯不让人家猜到我在想什么，如果被他们发现我可能会脸红了，或者“哭”？
因为他们了解我的意思，感动了……也许是吧。。
我有事，不会告诉别人的，除非真的真的很想说，否则就是不能说的秘密了。
所以，我有事我都会隐藏我的情绪不让别人发现，有时忍不住就躲去别的地方发泄咯。

笑一个吧

别独自一人躲在角落，
在茫茫人海中，有个人在注视着你
别说你已习惯了一个人，
其实你在害怕、担心
你永远只有一个人

牵着我的手，你就不会迷失方向
相信我，此时此刻请别再松开你的手

放心吧，有我在
我会带离你走向色彩世界

所以，
不要觉得寂寞、孤独
因为你还有我
笑一个吧，朋友 ^v^

don't be loser!!!

what should i write?? hmm.. after 2weeks i need to face the final exam..
havent prepare, still playing.. always in the last minute.
so depressing now..
who can give me a power to let me study hard, do enough preparation until that day to come?
sorry to me, but still doing nothing on it!!
if someone force me or give me a power to study(such as seeing someone try his best in his work or try hard on something) i will do better than now.

[after progress this method i will become:]
before of me: lazy
after(force) of me: done by hard(although only just a short moment..)

i hope i can force me to study hard!! a za a za hwaiting!!!

devotion - my prayer (lyrics)

this is a meaningful song lyric for me^^
is talk about a boy prayer.. for his girl. touching^^


Dear god:敬爱的神:

I know that she’s out there...
the one I’m suppose to share my whole life with.
她，那个我想要与她共度一生的人，虽然不在这里……
And in time...
you’ll show her to me.
但是我相信，某个时候，
你将会让我见到她。

Will you take care of her,
comfort her,
and protect her...
until that day we Meet.
能不能好好照顾她，
让她过得舒适，
还要佑护她……
直到我们见面的那一天

And let her know...
my heart...is beating with hers
还有，让她知道……
我的心……为她而存

In a dream I hold you close
Embracing you with my hands
You gazed at me with eyes full of love
And made me understand
在梦里我常常梦到你，
拥抱你，我看到了，
你用充满爱意的眼神凝视我。

That I was meant to share it with you
My heart my mind my soul
Then I open my eyes
And all I see reality shows I’m alone
我真的愿意全心全意的和你分享一切，
然而当我睁开眼睛，
看到的却是我还是孤单一人。

But I know someday that you’ll be by my side
Cause I know god’s just waiting till the time is right
但我知道总有一天你会出现在我身边，
因为上帝正在安排这个对的时间。

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
When the day’s cold will you keep her warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way
God will you let her know that I love her so
When theres no one there that she’s not alone
Just close her eyes and let her know
My heart is beating with hers
上帝你能不能让她平安，远离风暴；
当天气寒冷，你能不能让她温暖。
上帝你能不能让她知道我如此爱她；
让她知道即使世界上没有其他人，她也不会孤单；
让她知道只要她闭上眼睛，
她就会知道我的心为她存在。

So I prayed until that day (prayed until that day)
When our hearts will beat as one(when our hearts hearts will beat as one)
I will wait so patiently (patiently)
For that day to come (for that day to come)
我祈祷那天能出现，
我们感受到彼此的心在同时跳动。
我会一直耐心的等待，
只为这一天的来临。

I know someday that you’ll be by my side
Cause I know god’s just waiting till the time is right
我知道总有一天你会出现在我身边，
因为上帝正在安排这个对的时间。

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
When the day’s cold will you keep her warm
when the darkness falls will you please shine her the way(shine he the way)
God will you let her know that I love her so
When theres no one there that she’s’ not alone
Just close her eyes and let her know
My heart is beating with hers
上帝你能不能让她平安，远离风暴；
当天气寒冷，你能不能让她温暖。
上帝你能不能让她知道我如此爱她；
让她知道即使世界上没有其他人，她也不会孤单；
让她知道只要她闭上眼睛，
她就会知道我的心为她存在。

Is beating with hers (ooo)
My heart is beating with hers (oooo)
It’s beating with hers
我的心只为她存在，
一直为她存在。。。

God will you keep her safe from the thunderstorm
When the day’s cold will you keep her warm
When the darkness falls will you please shine her the way
God will you let her know that I love her so
When theres no one there that she’s not alone
Just close her eyes and let her know
My heart is beating with hers
上帝你能不能让她平安，远离风暴；
当天气寒冷，你能不能让她温暖。
上帝你能不能让她知道我如此爱她；
让她知道即使世界上没有其他人，她也不会孤单；
让她知道只要她闭上眼睛，
她就会知道我的心为她存在。

Oh~~~ it’s beating with hers(it’s beating with hers)
我的心只为她存在，一直为她存在...